Mini Blog Update

My life has been going through serious UPS and DOWNS. My social life's dying and I myself might be dead pretty soon. I haven't been updating my blog due to my whirlwind duty schedule. Our unit was total chaos. From 8-10 patients during my first weeks to a roaring number of 24 patients including TOXIC relatives. I wasn't even eating during my past shifts and like the patients I am putting myself on an NPO (Nothing Per Orem) basis. I don't even have time to catch my breath. Eight hours wasn't enough to fit in all the task that i need to do. I'm just thankful that i have been adjusting to the numerous patient set-up. Thank God i wasn't screwing up - at least not that MUCH. ;) 

I LOVE MY JOB. I LOVE MY JOB. I LOVE MY JOB. *whew*


Ciao for now.


Love,

Good for Nothing ME

I'm not good at anything.


I'm not good looking. I'm not a good person. I'm not a good writer, a dancer and a worst singer. I'm not a good friend, a good sister, a good daughter nor a good listener. I'm not good at modeling nor taking pictures, driving hates me and I'm screwing up at my work. 


Just as when i thought everything was working out just fine. Problem just keeps on hunting me and keeps on pulling me down. It always make sure that it's keeping up on whatever i'm doing. 


I'm trying. But i'm not giving my all, not even my good. Not even my best. 


So much frustrations keeping me down. I don't know where i'm headed and not know where i wanted to go. 


All i know is i'm STUCK. Not knowing what i want so i'm staying nowhere.


My life sucks. Because i'm making it hard for me. No one is to blame. I am what i am because subconsciously, it's what i am doing to myself. 


Ciao for now.


love,